Hey guys! Well it's been ages since I was last on. I told some of you that I was engaged but two
months ago my beu called it off. I am sad that it ended but in a way he did me a favour. He had a some problems that he was not willing to get help with. I still feel bad about the way that it ended but I have learned a lot from this experience. He did help me to become independant and to grow more mature. I am not angry at him, I feel sad for him because he is a lovely person with some problems that are not easy to overcome.

I am still waiting for our house to be built. My family and I are getting frustrated! It should be done by the end of the year - we hope! In the meantime I am looking for a house to stay in. My family is living on the block in caravans in the middle of winter! (Yes they are nuts!) But they need to save money so they live on the block. I can't because it is too squishie with five of us in two vans. On the upside I am staying with an aunty and she is helping me to look for a house to rent. I am thinking of going to college and I am going to do some volunteer work to help keep myself busy and to boost my self esteem.

I bought myself a laptop and I am using libraries in my area to access internet for free! I love wifi!! I cant be on it all the time but at least I can still have access to dev.art. I have been suffering from withdrawal symptoms and my doctor has ordered me to access dev.art as much as possible lol! I miss you guys and will see you sometimes in here! Thanks for your comments and support guys!

Overall this experience has taught me to listen to my head and not my heart! I have also learnt that if your loved one cant accept your family or isnt willing to be civil to them - u need to walk away otherwise things will get very messy!

See you around guys!!